Am I really attracted to men? (‘The Faceless Man’ and other essays)

Felix Conrad

Autogynephilia

  The ‘faceless man’ and the terrifying possibility that we have no sexual orientation. Hi, my name’s Felix Conrad and I love black coc*k. I apologise in advance to black men across the world for this blatant sexualisation of their organs but, let’s face it, that’s what sexual organs are for. Furthermore, by the same logic I’ll have to start apologising to Swedish girls who work as au-pairs, French women that are actually French maids, and any other class of people who have become the object of saucy stereotypes. So I repeat…I love black c%*k. In fact, I love black coc*s – plural…the more the better, and the blacker and bigger and shinier they are, the better too. I would stuff them one after the other in my cake hole and merrily chomp on them like there was no tomorrow. Or would I? You see, this love only exists in…

My wife caught me watching forced feminisation porn – help!

Felix Conrad

Sexology

Dear Felix, I’ll get straight to the point. Two days ago I was caught by my wife in an extremely compromising position, watching hardcore Lustomic forced feminisation porn. Having read your article on ‘should I tell my wife about my crossdreaming’ I was hoping you might be able to tell me how the hell I can fix this situation. My wife won’t even talk to my right now. Anonymous Dear Anonymous, I wish that some sophisticated yet soothing words rushed to my lips, but the first thing that comes to mind is just….   I’m not gonna lie to you… this is some bad shit. I mean, there’s porn that everyone knows… two big titted blonde lesbian nurses spanking each other, but forced feminisation is a whole other level. And the worse is… she caught you in the act… so you can’t even go for the old ‘I was doing…

3 Ways to defeat transphobic trolls from the alt-right

Anna Kamari

Transphobia

STRATEGY 1. Don’t Feed The Trolls! You know when you go to the zoo and there’s a sign that says ‘don’t feed the animals’… well, all transgender blogs should come with a banner “Don’t feed the trolls.” To interact with a troll is to feed him. It encourages him, it excites him, it rewards him. The species Alt-Right Trollus Americanus may appear on your blog wanting to debate a specific issue, but what they really want to do is to interact and fuck with you. That is their sustenance, their air supply and their reason for being. Therefore, If you ignore them, you cut off their food, oxygen and motivation. There’s nothing more annoying to a troll than being ignored. It irks them and niggles away at them and fucks their head. So remember, whenever possible…DON’T FEED THE TROLLS. In response, they will increase their vitriol and their hate but you can…

5 strategies for relationships affected by autogynephiliac fantasies

Felix Conrad

Autogynephilia

(This article is more aimed at couples where crossgender fantasies are causing a problem – not those couples who enjoy them.) COUPLES THERAPY: Listening to John and Nikki try different methods of dealing with John’s kink has inspired me. Here’s a summary of the five most common models I have experienced. 1. The Martyr Principle characteristic: devotion to family at the expense of sexuality. The martyr is a 100% closeted crossdreamer who has never (and will never) tell his wife/girlfriend about his sexual fantasies. However, unlike many ‘autogynephiliacs’ who lead a double life or lose interest in sex, the martyr provides everything expected of a husband: regular sex, a dose of masculinity, and a guarentee that his wife’s never going to return home and find him wearing a dress. The advantage of this model is that family life and sexual behaviour are not disrupted. Of course, the person who suffers at…

The psychology of forced feminisation and humiliation: Part-2

Felix Conrad

Sexology

  The most important thing to bear in mind if you are troubled by fantasies that involve humiliation (be they forced feminisation or sado masochism) is that such fantasies are extremely common. While there seem to be some personality types that do not enjoy it, I would argue that the vast majority of people do, and that humiliation and control are universal tools of arousal. What differs between people is the degree of humiliation and/or control they desire. Thus, in a mild form, woman x might find it arousing when a dominant man tells her in a fatherly voice that she is a ‘good girl’ while she is giving fellatio, while in a stronger form – man x might enjoy being forced to eat his own sperm (there is an entire sub genre of porn dedicated to this desire.) Humiliation exists right across the sexual spectrum across all orientations and…

What signs were there in my childhood that I was transgender and what is the significance of these signs?

Felix Conrad

Late onset transsexualism

  After such a long and exhausting diversion, I would like to return to our chronological narrative of the late onset transsexual’s life and development. So far, we have reached the first cross gender experience – which usually involves the young boy of four or five wearing female clothes and presenting himself to his family. What happens next? A very interesting thing to know is what would happen if instead of telling the boy it was not the done thing for him to wear a dress… they smiled and said very little. I would speculate that parental disapproval at this presentation of gender change behaviour has a powerful effect on the young child, causing him to bury his deeper female self with a vengeance. He goes all Taliban on that shit.   The successful subjugation of their female side is proved by the astonishing lack of any further signs of…

Why I’m ending my secret love affair with transgender vlogger, Blaire White

Anna Kamari

Transgender vloggers

Dear Blaire, I enjoy watching your videos…but I often get the same feeling I get when I watch naughty vids. It’s not only that you turn me on… (I seem to have recurring fantasies about you in a catsuit, spanking me)… but that the whole, exciting experience is soon followed by guilt. I am writing this letter to explain this guilt, and to explain the 5 reasons why I don’t want to see you anymore.   1)You only talk about what you hate…not what you love… Fascists*, and right wingers in general, are never capable of being constructive or creating anything. All their policies center on destruction (bringing down the EU, expelling immigrants, disbanding NATO, reducing the state etc.) This negativity is not just reflected in major policies but also in their worldview: they can always hark on for hours about what they don’t like (liberals, political correctness etc.) but…