Felix Conrad

Felix Conrad

Felix Conrad

How crossdreamers can live longer and earn extra cash!

Autogynephilia

  Having spent a sizable portion of my time recently, being intellectually skull fucked by the notorious WXLUP, I would like to extract something positive from the experience. I initially thought of creating an app – The WXLUP generator – which would, on demand, produce the type of overlong sentences he seems to favour. This is not a real quote, but one from the generator… It is the thing therein, therefore, which reflects the essential reductionist dimension of the fetish’s chief quality: that of being simultaneously constructed within both the microcosm and the macrocosm of latent… Seeing little commercial application for such a generator – other than to induce migraines – I have shelved my plans and settled for a philosophical learning. Which is… When it comes to transgender philosophy the emotion leads the intellect, making some disputes impossible to resolve. This is because the people involved have formulated an…

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Is it acceptable to use the term ‘fetish’ and ‘paraphilia’ when talking about crossdreaming?

Crossdreaming

I’d like to speak today about a linguistic dispute in the reddit crossdreamer thread. A dispute which can be described in the following terms… – Some members of the community want to refer to crossdreaming as a fetish . We will call them fetishists. – Some members are offended by this. We will call them crossdreamers How to resolve this issue First of all I want to make clear that this is solely a linguistic dispute. Crossdreamers have no problem with the idea that crossdreaming is fundamentally sexual.. ie… there are no hidden female identities, no transgender narrative… and that the crossdreamer is primarily motivated by a sexual urge. Crossdreamers do not believe that, but recognise it is a valid argument. So that’s not the cause of the dispute. What offends the crossdreamers is the use of the words fetish and paraphilia when talking about that sexual urge. The crossdreamers…

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Crossdreaming has made me lonely and incapable of a normal relationship

Crossdreaming

  Introduction I have just read a classic description on Reddit of egodystonic crossdreaming… which means, basically, the person hates being a crossdreamer. As is often the way with such cases, the first implement they flagellate themselves with is shame. What particularly upsets this person is their love of humiliation. However, I would point out that if you are turned on by submission then you should be grateful that all you require is forced feminisation. When it comes to BDSM, forced feminisation is child’s play. What is it, really? It’s basically a game of dress up followed by penetration. In contrast, other forms of domination require burning, whipping, binding, suffocation, being hung upside down, trampled on, shat on and pissed on. Then bear in mind that there are currently circulating in society – child molesters, zoophiliacs, amputee fetishsits and people who are into stuffed toys and balloons. However, shame is…

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If my transgender experience began with a sexual experience… is my female identity a creation of my sexuality?

Crossdreaming

    This question is annoyingly persistent in the crossdreaming community, and it is a morbid, obsessive question which lingers in the transgender mentality, causing doubt and shame. It is so important we resolve this question that I am going to deal with it in detail and write down the different ways in which it is formulated. It goes like this… 1) Is the cross gender identity I’m developing now, motivated – deep down – by my sex drive? 2) While my female identity may be extremely nuanced, and based around a whole set of aesthetic and personal tastes that aren’t sexual – is it really just a sophisticated form of being horny – an outgrowth of my sexual urge to be a woman? 3) To put it bluntly, in a way which all of us would consider crude, offensive and wrong, but one that occurs to me in moments…

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Who is Jack Molay?

Crossdreaming

We all know that he is the founder of crossdreamers.com and an ardent transgender activist… but what’s his favourite pasta sauce? Does he like football? What motivates him get to get out of bed each morning?” If you’ve ever wondered who Jack Molay is? (And I know I have) this is your chance. Hi Jack. Let’s start with five random questions. What is your favourite pasta sauce and are you a good cook? My pasta sauce will be very basic: A can of crushed tomatoes, some tomato puree, a couple of garlic cloves, virgin olive oil, salt, pepper, fresh basil and oregano. Then let it simmer for some 45 minutes. We normally cook from scratch, my wife and me. What’s your idea of a perfect Saturday? We have a couple of favourite cafe’s where we live, and sometimes we just bring a book or our iPads and spend some time…

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Is autogynephilia a fetish?

Autogynephilia

‘Fetish’ is an extremely unhelpful word. It is not a neutral, scientific word, but a term that comes loaded with baggage, and to most people is a synonym of ‘perversion.’ Therefore, even if it was technically correct to say that femephilia is a fetish I would eliminate the term from any dialogue around femephilia. However, while we’re on the subject, I don’t believe autogynephilia* is a fetish because, again, femephiliac sexual behaviour is too complex to label in one pen stroke. For example, its fantasies often involve a mix of hetero or homo lust, emotion for the sexual partner, and femephiliac lust… you can’t tease them apart and say it’s all about being a woman and that’s the only thing going on. Autogynephilia is fluid: it can sometimes form a major part or only a minor part of a sexual experience. It is also chameleon like and changes in different…

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What is a late-onset transsexual? Definitions, and the difference between early and late.

Late onset transsexualism

What is a late onset transsexual? Originally late onset transsexualism was associated with middle aged and older transsexuals. However, it is better thought of as… any case of adult transsexualism in which the desire to be, or belief of belonging to another gender, was not apparent to the individual early in their life. They came to the idea late – anything from 18 to 80 – as opposed to the early onset transsexual who knows consciously from their earliest years that they were – ‘born in the wrong body.’ But how is it possible for a person not to know that they are transsexual until late in life? There are two answers depending on the type of transsexual. If an early onset transsexual is subject to rigorous suppression then he or she can be in denial for many years. Thus, they come late because repressive mechanisms have told them they are…

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What are the causes of late onset transsexualism?

Late onset transsexualism

Let’s summmarise our explanation of late onset transsexualism thus far… Most humans have an intrinsic block to the idea of changing genders. Early onset transsexuals, however, for reasons we don’t understand, have no block against gender change. In fact, there is no gender change – they believe from a very early age that they belong to the other gender. Late onset transsexuals with a history of femephilia do have a block against gender change. They are raised with the sanctity of their cisgender and are soon socialised into accepting it. However – their femephilia and their deeper female self mean that the block to gender change is not solid. It has the potential to be weakened and removed at any point in adulthood. So, resistance to gender change will never wane with a non-transsexual person – there is a permanent portcullis slammed shut against the idea. The femephiliac, however, has…

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Is the late onset transsexual suffering from an obsession with being female?

Late onset transsexualism

  Is the late onset transsexual simply suffering from an obsession with being female? And if she is, how can she cut it from her life? Steve Jobs was obsessed with creating the world’s best home computer. That was good for him and good for the world. Adolf Hitler was obsessed with killing Jews. That was bad for the Jews, the world, and Hitler himself. As we see from the above examples, obsession (an idea or thought that continually occupies a person’s mind) can be good or bad. It all depends on the consequences for the thinker and the larger world. That gender change becomes an obsession for the late onset transsexual is undoubtable… ask one and she will tell you that it is constantly on her mind. The question is whether such dominance of her thinking is a good thing or a bad thing. This is an important question…

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Should the autogynephiliac transition?

Autogynephilia

Editor’s note: if you’re looking for a more trans-positive article then search do our Transition Test. If you’re looking for a more trans-skeptic article then keep on reading this page.   Step 1 of the Fusion Program: Accept that ‘transition’ is simply not realistic or desirable in the case of an autogynephiliac Disclaimer: There are different degrees of gender dysphoria. Some men experience gender dysphoria and a strong female identity, but they can continue living as men; however, some men experience gender dysphoria so intensely that living as a man is just not an option… they must transition. This essay is absolutely not for the second type of sufferer who is deeply transsexual and must transition. In fact, I would urge you not to read this because it is directed towards men who, for one reason or another, cannot or don’t want to, transition, and therefore it is biased towards…

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