Category: Late onset transsexualism

Felix Conrad

What signs were there in my childhood that I was transgender and what is the significance of these signs?

Late onset transsexualism

  After such a long and exhausting diversion, I would like to return to our chronological narrative of the late onset transsexual’s life and development. So far, we have reached the first cross gender experience – which usually involves the young boy of four or five wearing female clothes and presenting himself to his family. What happens next? A very interesting thing to know is what would happen if instead of telling the boy it was not the done thing for him to wear a dress… they smiled and said very little. I would speculate that parental disapproval at this presentation of gender change behaviour has a powerful effect on the young child, causing him to bury his deeper female self with a vengeance. He goes all Taliban on that shit.   The successful subjugation of their female side is proved by the astonishing lack of any further signs of…

Felix Conrad

An anonymous account of the causes of late-onset transsexualism

Late onset transsexualism

1. Introduction Today, I’d like to tell you a story. I didn’t meet my father til’ I was 25. I grew up my whole life without a father, therefore, and told myself I didn’t want one. When I thought of fathers I always had this fucked up idea of them from the Breakfast Club. There was basically two types of dad… 1. Brian’s Dad: some boring, pointless middle-aged dude who said shit like, “Gee son…how’d you like to go fishing today?” Or… 2. Bender’s Dad: some abusive bastard who would give you a carton of cigarettes for Christmas and say, “Smoke up Johnny.” So if you’d asked me when I was in my teens or twenties if I wanted a Dad, I would have sworn an oath that I didn’t want one. And I was certain that was how I truly felt. And it was… …in my conscious mind. But…

Felix Conrad

If my transgender experience began with a sexual experience… is my female identity a creation of my sexuality?

Crossdreaming

    This question is annoyingly persistent in the crossdreaming community, and it is a morbid, obsessive question which lingers in the transgender mentality, causing doubt and shame. It is so important we resolve this question that I am going to deal with it in detail and write down the different ways in which it is formulated. It goes like this… 1) Is the cross gender identity I’m developing now, motivated – deep down – by my sex drive? 2) While my female identity may be extremely nuanced, and based around a whole set of aesthetic and personal tastes that aren’t sexual – is it really just a sophisticated form of being horny – an outgrowth of my sexual urge to be a woman? 3) To put it bluntly, in a way which all of us would consider crude, offensive and wrong, but one that occurs to me in moments…

Felix Conrad

What is a late-onset transsexual? Definitions, and the difference between early and late.

Late onset transsexualism

What is a late onset transsexual? Originally late onset transsexualism was associated with middle aged and older transsexuals. However, it is better thought of as… any case of adult transsexualism in which the desire to be, or belief of belonging to another gender, was not apparent to the individual early in their life. They came to the idea late – anything from 18 to 80 – as opposed to the early onset transsexual who knows consciously from their earliest years that they were – ‘born in the wrong body.’ But how is it possible for a person not to know that they are transsexual until late in life? There are two answers depending on the type of transsexual. If an early onset transsexual is subject to rigorous suppression then he or she can be in denial for many years. Thus, they come late because repressive mechanisms have told them they are…

Felix Conrad

What are the causes of late onset transsexualism?

Late onset transsexualism

Let’s summmarise our explanation of late onset transsexualism thus far… Most humans have an intrinsic block to the idea of changing genders. Early onset transsexuals, however, for reasons we don’t understand, have no block against gender change. In fact, there is no gender change – they believe from a very early age that they belong to the other gender. Late onset transsexuals with a history of femephilia do have a block against gender change. They are raised with the sanctity of their cisgender and are soon socialised into accepting it. However – their femephilia and their deeper female self mean that the block to gender change is not solid. It has the potential to be weakened and removed at any point in adulthood. So, resistance to gender change will never wane with a non-transsexual person – there is a permanent portcullis slammed shut against the idea. The femephiliac, however, has…

Felix Conrad

Is the late onset transsexual suffering from an obsession with being female?

Late onset transsexualism

  Is the late onset transsexual simply suffering from an obsession with being female? And if she is, how can she cut it from her life? Steve Jobs was obsessed with creating the world’s best home computer. That was good for him and good for the world. Adolf Hitler was obsessed with killing Jews. That was bad for the Jews, the world, and Hitler himself. As we see from the above examples, obsession (an idea or thought that continually occupies a person’s mind) can be good or bad. It all depends on the consequences for the thinker and the larger world. That gender change becomes an obsession for the late onset transsexual is undoubtable… ask one and she will tell you that it is constantly on her mind. The question is whether such dominance of her thinking is a good thing or a bad thing. This is an important question…

Felix Conrad

Should the autogynephiliac transition?

Autogynephilia

Editor’s note: if you’re looking for a more trans-positive article then search do our Transition Test. If you’re looking for a more trans-skeptic article then keep on reading this page.   Step 1 of the Fusion Program: Accept that ‘transition’ is simply not realistic or desirable in the case of an autogynephiliac Disclaimer: There are different degrees of gender dysphoria. Some men experience gender dysphoria and a strong female identity, but they can continue living as men; however, some men experience gender dysphoria so intensely that living as a man is just not an option… they must transition. This essay is absolutely not for the second type of sufferer who is deeply transsexual and must transition. In fact, I would urge you not to read this because it is directed towards men who, for one reason or another, cannot or don’t want to, transition, and therefore it is biased towards…

Felix Conrad

Scientists prove autogynephilia is correct. Now what?

Autogynephilia

  On the 28th of June, 2019, The Daily Mail reveals that new research into the genetics of sexuality prove conclusively that the transgender condition in older transsexuals is linked to their sexuality. Here is an extract from the article. Researchers discover transgender women have fetish! Since discovering the genes responsible for human sexuality, the research group at Melbourne University who made the discovery continue to explore its ramifications. One of the most startling is that so called ‘transgender women’ can no longer claim they are trapped in the wrong body. Turns out they are simply men who have a fetish! While this shocking revelation may seem to contradict current psychiatric thinking, Daily Mail reporters have discovered that respected sexologists such as Doctor Ray Blanchard of the Toronto Institute posited such a fetish as far back as 1983. Prime Minister, Nigel Farage, said that this was just another example of…

Felix Conrad

How should (‘some’) transgender individuals identify?

How to Beat Gender Dysphoria

  Step 2b of the Fusion Program: Identify in a healthy, realistic direction, and understand that gender change for you should be mostly psychological not physical. (Sorry, a more accurate title for this article would be… How should a transgender person with moderate gender dysphoria and a femephiliac sexuality identify? As ever, readers should remember that our advice is not suited to early onset transexuals or suffererers of severe gender dysphoria.) It’s time for a thought experiment. Yes, another one! I would like you to imagine a different world in which the previously mentioned four year old boy suddenly and unexpectedly presents himself to his family, in a dress. I want you to imagine that the parents are absolutely delighted and immediately call the child’s grandparents and various friends to inform them what’s happened. And you might well ask… “Why the fuck would they do that?” Because they know that they’re child…

Felix Conrad

The late-onset transsexual, transphobia, and passing…

Late onset transsexualism

Trans-gender media features a small handful of male to female transsexuals who succsesfully pass as cis-women. A classic example of this is Geena Rocero – who worked as a high flying fashion model for more than a decade. These noble women have chosen to out themselves as transgender and they should receive all the respect that such action deserves. However, the experience that these women have had – both in their trajectory as transsexuals and in their coming out – is markedly different to that of the comunal garden late onset transsexual. The reason is the same reason why some women are immediately courted and favoured over others: beauty. Whether a human is transsexual or not… if he or she is flawlessly beautiful at the moment of presenting themselves to the world… acceptance is forthcoming. I recently saw a perfect example of this on a British chat show when an…

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